See to Sea (for Princeton).

I.

and he says

"you are beautiful

and talented

and amazing"

but my disagreement

is simple

these adjectives

do not describe me

in the slightest

and you laugh

and say

"it don't mean no thing"

and I agree

but that

just

won't

do

II.

there's light skittering on the surface

and I don't know who I am

but I do know what I am

this flesh and blood

that I bleed

there is always someone out there

physical presence

do not be deceived

it is just a mirage

III.

the railing holds me back

but not from

the breadth of feeling

and the immensity

and the vastness

IV.

Looking over this sea of darkness,

I see now

that this is a conscious dream,

one in which I can only wake up from

by dying.

a la Mexicana.

Waiting for my Spanish mistress,

I begin to pace around the room

analyzing the space which I occupy.

She is late, as per usual,

and probably missed the bus.

I hear screams coming from another room,

high-pitched, a woman.

I pour myself a brandy,

as the disorder in the other room intensifies.

I search for a flame to light my fag,

soon finding a book of matches.

I take a drag,

ponder my mere existence,

and exhale.

A cloud of smoke rises.

And then my Spanish mistress arrives,

naked, exposed to the world.

The great phallus revealed,

I jump on the bed,

and welcome a night that will cure me.

If only.

The moon sits low,

as we do our dance,

until the morning light shines.

A la Mexicana.

Top Albums of 2010.

01. Heartland (Owen Pallett)

02. Halcyon Digest (Deerhunter)

03. Teen Dream (Beach House)

04. My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy (Kanye West)

05. Sir Lucious Left Foot: The Son of Chico Dusty (Big Boi)

06. Have One on Me (Joanna Newsom)

07. Mines (Menomena)

08. This Is Happening (LCD Soundsystem)

09. Down There (Avey Tare)

10. The Social Network (Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross)

11. Everything in Between (No Age)

12. Treats (Sleigh Bells)

13. Subiza (Delorean)

14. High Violet (The National)

15. Lisbon (The Walkmen)

16. The ArchAndroid (Suites II and III) (Janelle Monáe)

17. Small Craft on a Milk Sea (Brian Eno)

18. Forgiveness Rock Record (Broken Social Scene)

19. How I Got Over (The Roots)

20. One Life Stand (Hot Chip)

honorable mentions:

Bastard (Tyler, the Creator)

Lucky Shiner (Gold Panda)

Swanlights (Antony and the Johnsons)

The Suburbs (Arcade Fire)

Dear God, I Hate Myself (Xiu Xiu)

Beach Fossils (Beach Fossils)

Lasted (Benoît Pioulard)

Swim (Caribou)

Total Life Forever (Foals)

Tourist History (Two Door Cinema Club)

Champ (Tokyo Police Club)

Body Talk (Robyn)

Odd Blood (Yeasayer)

Contra (Vampire Weekend)

Love King (The-Dream)

The Orchard (Ra Ra Riot)

Cosmogramma / Pattern+Grid World EP (Flying Lotus)

The Drums (The Drums)

Before Today (Ariel Pink's Haunted Graffiti)

Wild Smile (Suckers)

Avi Buffalo (Avi Buffalo)

Plastic Beach (Gorillaz)

I Will Be (Dum Dum Girls)

Big Echo (The Morning Benders)

Astro Coast (Surfer Blood)

Gemini (Wild Nothing)

Brothers (The Black Keys)

Interpol (Interpol)

Love Remains (How to Dress Well)

Go (Jónsi)

Forget (Twin Shadow)

Special Affections (Diamond Rings)

There Is Love in You (Four Tet)

Causers of This (Toro Y Moi)

The Age of Adz / All Delighted People EP (Sufjan Stevens)

New Chain (Small Black)

Fang Island (Fang Island)

Electric Sunset (Electric Sunset)

Heaven is Whenever (The Hold Steady)

Clinging to a Scheme (The Radio Dept.)

Spirit Youth (The Depreciation Guild)

Crazy for You (Best Coast)

King of the Beach (Wavves)

All Day (Girl Talk)

The Monitor (Titus Andronicus)

White Magic (ceo)